The Following is told by Bernard Hare a British writter.
The text is taken from
a page on the BBC website
The police called at my student hovel early evening, but I didn't
answer as I thought they'd come to evict me. I hadn't paid my rent in
months.
But then I got to thinking: my mum hadn't been too good and what if it was something about her?
We had no phone in the hovel and mobiles hadn't been invented yet, so I had to nip down the phone box.
I rang home to Leeds to find my mother was in hospital and not expected to survive the night. "Get home, son," my dad said.
I got to the railway station to find I'd missed the last
train. A train was going as far as Peterborough, but I would miss the
connecting Leeds train by twenty minutes.
I bought a ticket home and got
on anyway. I was a struggling student and didn't have the money for a
taxi the whole way, but I had a screwdriver in my pocket and my bunch of
skeleton keys.
I was so desperate to get home that I planned to nick a car
in Peterborough, hitch hike, steal some money, something, anything. I
just knew from my dad's tone of voice that my mother was going to die
that night and I intended to get home if it killed me.
"Tickets, please," I heard, as I stared blankly out of the
window at the passing darkness. I fumbled for my ticket and gave it to
the guard when he approached. He stamped it, but then just stood there
looking at me. I'd been crying, had red eyes and must have looked a
fright.
"You okay?" he asked.
"Course I'm okay," I said. "Why wouldn't I be? And what's it got to do with you in any case?"
"You look awful," he said. "Is there anything I can do?"
"You could get lost and mind your own business," I said. "That'd be a big help." I wasn't in the mood for talking.
He was only a little bloke and he must have read the danger
signals in my body language and tone of voice, but he sat down opposite
me anyway and continued to engage me.
"If there's a problem, I'm here to help. That's what I'm paid for."
I was a big bloke in my prime, so I thought for a second
about physically sending him on his way, but somehow it didn't seem
appropriate. He wasn't really doing much wrong. I was going through all
the stages of grief at once: denial, anger, guilt, withdrawal,
everything but acceptance. I was a bubbling cauldron of emotion and he
had placed himself in my line of fire.
The only other thing I could think of to get rid of him was to tell him my story.
"Look, my mum's in hospital, dying, she won't survive the
night, I'm going to miss the connection to Leeds at Peterborough, I'm
not sure how I'm going to get home.
"It's tonight or never, I won't get another chance, I'm a bit
upset, I don't really feel like talking, I'd be grateful if you'd leave
me alone. Okay?"
"Okay," he said, finally getting up. "Sorry to hear that,
son. I'll leave you alone then. Hope you make it home in time." Then he
wandered off down the carriage back the way he came.
I continued to look out of the
window at the dark. Ten minutes later, he was back at the side of my
table. Oh no, I thought, here we go again. This time I really am going
to rag him down the train.
He touched my arm. "Listen, when we get to Peterborough,
shoot straight over to Platform One as quick as you like. The Leeds
train'll be there."
I looked at him dumbfounded. It wasn't really registering.
"Come again," I said, stupidly. "What do you mean? Is it late, or
something?"
"No, it isn't late," he said, defensively, as if he really
cared whether trains were late or not. "No, I've just radioed
Peterborough. They're going to hold the train up for you. As soon as you
get on, it goes.
"Everyone will be complaining about how late it is, but let's
not worry about that on this occasion. You'll get home and that's the
main thing. Good luck and God bless."
Then he was off down the train again. "Tickets, please. Any more tickets now?"
I suddenly realised what a top-class, fully-fledged doilem I
was and chased him down the train. I wanted to give him all the money
from my wallet, my driver's licence, my keys, but I knew he would be
offended.
I caught him up and grabbed his arm. "Oh, er, I just wanted to…" I was suddenly speechless. "I, erm…"
Bernard was desperate to see his mother, Joyce
"It's okay," he said. "Not a problem." He had a warm smile on
his face and true compassion in his eyes. He was a good man for its own
sake and required nothing in return.
"I wish I had some way to thank you," I said. "I appreciate what you've done."
"Not a problem," he said again. "If you feel the need to
thank me, the next time you see someone in trouble, you help them out.
That will pay me back amply.
"Tell them to pay you back the same way and soon the world will be a better place."
I was at my mother's side when she died in the early hours of
the morning. Even now, I can't think of her without remembering the
Good Conductor on that late-night train to Peterborough and, to this
day, I won't hear a bad word said about British Rail.
My meeting with the Good Conductor changed me from a selfish,
potentially violent hedonist into a decent human being, but it took
time.
"I've paid him back a thousand times since then," I tell the
young people I work with, "and I'll keep on doing so till the day I die.
You don't owe me nothing. Nothing at all."
"And if you think you do, I'd give you the same advice the Good Conductor gave me. Pass it down the line."
OK, so if you follow anyone in the Jesus Army on Facebook or Twitter you would have probably heard already that a Miracle occurred during the night on Sunday.
